Tuesday, September 30, 2014
kyssthis16:

majiinboo:

NOOOOOOO!

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kyssthis16:

majiinboo:

NOOOOOOO!

FUCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCK

(Source: drizzydrehk)

so… do my coworkers realize how snobby they sound when they shit on every single fast food and/or inexpensive restaurant on earth?

i’ve seen this really attractive person get off at the same train stop as me a couple of times.  one time they were wearing chic business clothes that i wanted to steal (thumbs up emoji) and today they had on velvet pants and a leather jacket with a longboard draped over their shoulder (double thumbs up + dancing lady emoji) so needless to say they’re way too cool for me.  i’m open to suggestions on how i can get this stranger to fall in love with me immediately.

Monday, September 29, 2014

Currently Reading.

Thursday, September 25, 2014
bitterglitterqueer:

THIS AVOCADO IS FURIOUS

bitterglitterqueer:

THIS AVOCADO IS FURIOUS

(Source: successisnotanoption)

Wednesday, September 24, 2014

how dare internet explorer ask me if i want to make it my default browser

some things

i drove a pickup truck for the first time this weekend and i had to use my backpack as a booster seat

i think my spirit is breaking

i saw my baby cousin on saturday. it’s nice to know i’m capable of loving something that much

i’m gonna get my septum pierced. someone told me it would look bad on me but i hope they’re wrong

remember brotherly love?

when am i going to stop being a hideous beast?

we were talking about welcome to the dollhouse at work the other day, it was my favorite movie for a really long time, it used to be on hbo like every day

my stomach hurts i need a day off

Friday, September 19, 2014
I’ve spent my free time the past couple weeks tuning up this block plane. Today it made its first shavings. #woodworking #handplane

I’ve spent my free time the past couple weeks tuning up this block plane. Today it made its first shavings. #woodworking #handplane

Thursday, September 18, 2014

(Source: otoso)

Wednesday, September 17, 2014

I’m quite positive that if I was watching tv and saw you in an air force commercial I would actually slit my wrists

funeral

returnthegayze:

our train is delayed and i am late for lunch
with a boy i like because he makes me feel
less lonely and that seems like a sufficient
definition for love these days
in this city where it is possible to be surrounded
by the warmth of millions of apartment lights and
still feel cold

the lights turn off.
and it’s one of those moments
when we are forced to look up from our screens
and remember that we exist outside of them

they tell us that someone jumped in front of the tracks
that he died upon impact
so we just sit there in silence
as they remove his remains.

and some part of us
is happy because this,
this is the first time we have
felt like part of something greater than ourselves in a while
in this city where sometimes it takes
an accident to remember what the purpose of a
body is to begin with.

when the train starts up again
the woman next to me starts complaining
and asking why he didn’t do it at home
how he could have saved us the trouble and time
by taking a bottle of pills before leaving the house
how selfish it is to delay others with your death

and i want to hug her
say: “remind me the purpose of this arm”
want to love her
say: “remind me the purpose of this heart”

but you see this is america
where people scatter on streets like discarded leaves –
only touching accidentally as we
land on these cities we grew up circling on maps
saying  “remind me happiness”
and somehow convinced ourselves they did
the same way we believed in the borders between
countries so well that we built a wall around
them: called it ‘mine’

this is america
where pain is a ritual we are required to conduct in private:
an elaborate symphony on mute

call it “he died in his sleep peacefully”
(as if the stroke did not tear him to pieces)

call it “he lived to be eighty six years old”
(
as if he didn’t hate himself for at least thirty of them)


call it “accident”
not no healthcare

call it “casualty”
not calculation

in america:

death is a distraction.
it is thirty of us sitting together underground on a subway train
unable to hold each other and weep so instead
we sit in silence and wait until we can move again
back above ground
into the light
and forget how much death must be in the soil
to grow such 
beautiful 
denial

i want to text the boy above ground waiting for me, ask:
"have you ever been to a funeral with complete strangers?"
but instead i look at the woman next to me, the one
who told a dead man to die more considerately and
i remember that to live in america is to attend
a funeral with complete strangers:
how many ghosts does it take for a cemetery to call itself a country?

to live in america is to blame the
dead for their own death, not
the country for creating the very
conditions that already killed us
before we caught up and
made things more clear.

which is why when i tell the
liberal who wears words like ‘diplomacy’
and ‘democrat’ that i will not pay his taxes
because i do not want my coins to cause carnage
and he calls me a terrorist
(i understand)

which is why when i tell him
that i do believe in monsters who come
out at night, call them ‘men’ for short
and he tells me that i only dress femme because i want to be bashed
(i understand)

which is why when i tell him
that the very women who started our movement
are still being murdered in the same cities where
men are getting married and calling it momentous
and he gasps: “that happens here? in america!”
(i understand)

the ways we have been taught
to apologize for our sadness.
to blame ourselves for the hurt.
to erase the violence.
to numb the pain.
to wake up in the morning and
deny that sometimes when the
train crawls into the station that
we may see a pill in its place.
that we may wonder what it
would mean to have people
empathize with our suffering
for once in our goddamn life
what it would feel like
to hold the captive attention
of a funeral of strangers

so i want to embrace to this woman on the train
and say: “i am afraid too”
say: “remind me trust”
say: sometimes this silence feels like the highest pitch of screaming.
say: i understand. say: these past thirty minutes were the first time i have
been forced to publicly grieve death in a long time
and there is something
beautiful about that
say: what if we stopped moving more often,
took a second to
absorb the pain,
let it fill us a little less empty.

but instead i will sit here and wait until the train starts up again.
i will exit the car without saying goodbye to her.
i will walk up the stairs to the boy outside with the smile that makes me feel less lonely.
i will apologize for being late.
i will not have the words for a type of loss that is so distant it is intimate.
after lunch later i will get back on the train.
i will remember.
i will soon forget.
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this is an original poem by alok of returnthegayze.com . please consider supporting the artist

You are not a reflection of the people who can’t love you.

(Source: loosebaggymonster)

Rosewater was twice as smart as Billy, but he and Billy were dealing with similar crises in similar ways. They had both found life meaningless, partly because of what they had seen in war. Rosewater, for instance, had shot a fourteen-year-old fireman, mistaking him for a German soldier. So it goes. And Billy had seen the greatest massacre in European history, which was the firebombing of Dresden. So it goes.

So they were trying to re-invent themselves and their universe. Science fiction was a big help.

Slaughterhouse Five by Kurt Vonnegut
Monday, September 15, 2014
beyoncefashionstyle:

Lmaaaao

is “queer time” an actual thing or are people just copying cpt?